♥ OURS

31.7.09

glad tt u r enjoying yr life now..maybe i make the right choice ba..can see,feel and hear..take good care of yr health..thx for the fishes..thx for the bag..thx for korea,thailand and genting..thx for the good memories..and mani mani more..thx for showing mi tt i suck as a bf..thx for letting mi know wat is pain..thx for taking care of mi when i'm sick..thx for tolerating my attitude and black face..thx for all the effort..for myself ! back to mR l0NeLy..got nthing now..so stupid..forget it..love hurts life sucks..

27.7.09

she found frens to care for her and someone to tok to le..happi for her..as for myself..i'm stuck.no one tends to understand mi yet..why ? all my fault..maybe ba..nowadays keep occupied myself with game,slp, speed and speed.tons and tons of speed..i noe is bad..but as i dun get 200km/h..i just dun feel lyk releasing the throttle. nowdays i'm a reckless rider. cutting here and there..cant stop myself..jialat.. but when i noe u r ok.i feel ease. cos u got lots of siblings and frens to help u through but people ard us are not helping mi at all. they simply just scolding mi for wat i done. onli one who really understand mi but everyone are restricting mi and her. so i can just do wat i always do..keep everything by myself and suffer alone.. feel so bad but i'm used to it le..so shuld be alright ba..army pls come soon. then i can forget abt frens,family,pain and sadness..if not i'm just wearing a mask everyday..no one knows. hahahahahaahha. fear is all ard mi. making mi hard to continue living. one word to describe derrick goh kok boon. DEATH

26.7.09

someone pls kill mi !!!

19.7.09

right or wrong ? correct or not correct ? shuld it be lyk tis or shuld it not ? i'm confuse,tire,headache and heart aching. my brain and heart is full of question mark ??????? i nid time, lots and lots of time to tink properly. i dun wan to hurt u again again and again. but since i make this decision le, so i will try my veri best.

13.7.09

i've been living with a shadow overhead,

i've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,

i've been lonely for so long,

trapped in the past,

i just can't seem to move on!

i've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,

just in case i ever need them again someday,

i've been setting aside time,

to clear a little space in the corners of my mind!

all i want to do is find a way back into love.

i can't make it through without a way bak into love.

oooooh

i've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,

i've been searching but i just don't see the signs,

i know tat it's out there,

there's got to be something for my soul somewhere!

i've been looking for someone to shed some light,

not somebody just to get me through the night,

i could use some directions ,

and i'm open to your suggestions.

all i want to do is find a way back into love.

i can't make it through without a way back into love.

and if i open my heart again,

i guess i'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end!

there are moments when i don't know if it's real

or if anybody feels the way i feel

i need inspiration

not just another negotiation

all i want to do is find a way back into love,

i can't make it through without a way back into love,

and if i open my heart to you,

i'm hoping you'll show me what to do,

and if you help to start again,

you know that i'll be there for you in the end!

alright..went ubin again..this time better luck..caught 1 small sting ray and 7 catfish..one big wan leh..haha..this time i'm well-prepare..lightstick and stand..this time baby poor thing..cos i concentrate at the light stick too long till i dizzy..haha..so went to rest for awhile then baby help mi take care of the rods..thx baby..as for HER..the kun sin(sleeping god)..set up the tent..tok on the phone awhile then slp from 8pm till 9am..although got wake up in between but she totally gone !!! got a veri big rain..then we forget to close the tent's window..so water splash in..till out tent lyk flooded..but our kun sin just say"my leg wet wet liao" and then she can just continue slp lyk a pig although she is lyk slping in the pool..oh my..totally gone case leh..but i really enjoy fishing at there..as well as camping there..so relax lo..actually this week i wanna go again but baby and kun sin say wait nxt week..maybe they sian le ba..cant blame them also cos baby maybe dun lyk fishing tt much and kun sin of course is onli know how to slp..so she dunno how to fish lo..as for the photos..nid to go baby or kun sin blog then can see le lo..cos the photos all not with mi..too bad..lastly..couples out there..the most impotant thing in a good relationship is TRUST..so dun ever hide anithing from yr loved ones..worst still, dun lie !!!

6.7.09

went to pulau ubin on 4/7/09..a 2d1n trip with baby and charmaine..is really a veri good place..and a good place for fishing also..althought i didn't catch ani..but i will catch the nxt time i go ubin..i promise myself..haha..but this 2 girls ar..jialat leh..go there and sleep onli..so no one acc mi so i also slp lo..wahahaha..wat to do..came back on 5/7/09..went home to slp for awhile..then charmaine wan to go suntecc city to cut hair..so baby and i acc her go lo..after cutting her hair, we went to eat ba gu teh..nice but abit too much of pepper..but tt's is why it is so well-known lo..then went home after that..charmaine send baby home then came back my hse..cos she meeting angda..hm..after tt i went home le lo..the nxt morning wake up to acc baby they all eat breakfast.then went to sch together..i went is to take my cert..after tt went home then..angda called..to ask mi acc him to vicom to check his iu unit..then i take my cert for my exhaust also lo..haha..one stone kill two bird..end of my this few days journey le lo..

2.7.09

oh my oh my oh my..still cant save..why ?i try my best le but since he choose tt way..also bo bian le lo..but charmaine no worries..u still got jojo and mi..haha..we will still acc all the way de.tok abt wat i done le lo..prawning yesterday then went to jurong fishing port to buy fish..then went to charmaine house to cook all this..and tt's when he break the news to girl..but this little girl veri strong..so she still manage to overcome everything..quite happy for her also..aniway washing bike with her and baby this afternoon..as for now, i going to inspection for my exhaust le lo..i'M nOt rIdiNg fAsT, i'M jUsT fLyiNg lOw..

this few days good good good..hav lots of fun..with my new frens who are baby's frens..AngDa-Charmaine..the sp and the honda fit..haha..alol with license..oh my..enjoy being with them and baby..but seems lyk is going to end soon le cos they going to start sch le..and some problems ! aniway i'm trying my best to settle all this things..one who is under pressure, another one who wan to love but scare to love..haix..relationship is always so complicated de..yesterday angda's bike breakdown so went to help him..then at night time went to charmaine house, she and baby hav to do their holiday homework..haha..homework !(wat is tt) then went to Charmaine's garden to hav a tok with her..good chit chat down there..aniway ard 5 then went home le..cos baby veri tire le..can see and can feel..haha..as for today, i was waken up by a call(Mr Angda) oh my.haha..so i nv slp le lo..aniway waiting for Charmaine to wake up also..then can plan where to go today..everyday go out..veri bad..lol..afterall holidays going to end soon for them le..so ENJOY ba !!!